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Prologue: Throat Clearing—The Who and the What and the Why. <p>1. Conversion, As Best As I Remember It.</p> <p>2. God’s Music.</p> <p>3. The Spiritual Exercises.</p> <p>4. Megachurch, Megafaith.</p> <p>5. Go Ye Therefore.</p> <p>6. The Categorical Imperative(s).</p> <p>7. The God Who Is Where?</p> <p>8. Charismania.</p> <p>9. The Fall(out) of the Holy Spirit.</p> <p>10. Arrested Development.</p> <p>Epilogue: The Never-Ending Story.</p> <p>Acknowledgments.</p> <p>The Author.</p>

Too much pot. Too many beers. Tired of lying to his parents, Patton, 18, is ready to come clean. He goes looking for God at a charismatic megachurch where people are "unabashedly excited about Jesus," and his life turns around. He speaks in tongues, dances spontaneously during worship services, enrolls at Oral Roberts University. And he prays incessantly: "My prayers cover the nation, the world. They pour out of my mouth and gush through the air, rumbling up the foothills of Pikes Peak and leaping into the sky, splashing down into the plains and rushing across into the towns and boroughs and metropolises, seeping under people’s windowsills and covering their entire homes like a film that won’t come off." Now a grad student and contributing editor to the webzine killingthebuddha.com, Dodd engagingly recreates two years of passionate faith and excruciating doubt, weaving historical notes and sociological observations into his personal narrative. Though his experience as a fanatically "evangelical, Bible-believing, chest-pounding Christian" was short-lived, Dodd’s tone is sympathetic as well as wryly humorous, and his analysis is usually kind: "ORU is not a place of insincere devotion; it is a place of extreme devotion sincerely and frequently expressed." This lively coming-of-age story succeeds both as literary memoir and as an intimate look at a popular variety of American religious experience. <i>(Nov.)</i> (<i>Publishers Weekly</i>, October 11, 2004)

<b>Patton Dodd</b> has worked as a ghost writer, editor, movie reviewer, and submissions director for a film festival.  He has written for both religious and general audiences in publications such as <i>re:generation quarterly</i>, the <i>Colorado Springs Independent</i>, and <i>Life@Work</i>, as well as numerous webzines, including <i>Killing the Buddha</i>, <i>The New Pantagruel</i>, and <i>The Revealer</i>. He is a doctoral candidate in religion and literature at Boston University.

In this frank, funny, and often challenging memoir about life in and out of the church, twenty-something Patton Dodd reveals his quest for an authentic experience of God. On his journey he attempts to pinpoint and justify his belief in God, first with the fervent absolutes that characterize a new believer’s faith but then with a growing awareness of the cultural complexities that define his faith and encompass his understanding of Christianity. <p>When a spiritual awakening in his last year of high school wrenches Dodd out of his rebellious party days, he embarks on a quest for God. He exchanges pot smoking for worship dancing, gives up MTV for Christian pop, and enrolls at a Christian university. Soon, however, he finds himself ill at ease with the other Christians around him and with the cloying superficiality of the Christian subculture. Dodd tells his story in contradictory terms—conversion and confusion, acceptance and rejection, spiritual highs and psychological lows. With painstaking honesty, he tries to negotiate a relationship with his faith apart from the cultural trappings that often clothe it.</p> <p>Dodd’s moving story paints a nuanced and multilayered portrait of an earnest quest for God: the hunger for genuine faith, the bleak encounters with doubt, and the consuming questions that challenge the intellect and the soul. This is a story that will resonate with the emerging generation of young adults attempting to break new ground within their own faith tradition.</p>

"Honesty is a rare commodity. Sometimes it’s rarest in the world of religion. Like the blues in music, there’s something oddly uplifting about it. Patton Dodd offers an honest and engaging reflection of his experience in the world of charismatic Christianity—poignant, even painful, yet somehow uplifting. Whatever your religious background, you'll learn here, and perhaps be nudged toward greater honesty in your own spiritual search."<br /> —Brian McLaren, pastor, author (anewkindofchristian.com) <p>"Patton Dodd's memoir is the most honest account of the constant conversions, backslides, and rebirths of a life of faith that I have read in years. In its acknowledgment that the intellect, too, can be a path to salvation, <i>My Faith So Far</i> brings to mind the classics of spiritual memoir genre, perhaps especially <i>The Seven Storey Mountain</i>. In fact, if the evangelical world is in need of its own Merton, a young writer willing to keep his wit sharp while searching for both sustenance and relevance in his faith, Dodd might be the man for the job."<br /> —Peter Manseau, coauthor of <i>Killing the Buddha; A Heretic's Bible</i></p> <p>"<i>My Faith So Far</i> is at once feisty and irreverent, rebellious and tender… Patton Dodd is an evangelical trying to break free from the superficiality and smugness of his subculture, but he is never more evangelical than in his pursuit of this struggle. This book is an urgent dispatch from the cutting edge of religious and cultural change. This is news."<br /> —Gregory Wolfe, Editor, <i>Image: A Journal of the Arts and Religion</i></p>

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